Chasing Rainbows
For almost ten years, now, I have been chasing rainbows. Working away and hoping, praying, waiting and being resolutely determined. And it has worked. I have written three, almost four books and a radio play. I have plans for a stage play and more books – many more books, no shortage of ideas, characters demanding a hearing, plots, sub-plots…
The work takes on its own momentum. It is a relief now, to be in a situation where the work more or less leads me, and I am merely the channel for its expression.
A long decade kaleidoscopes in the last few months so that I ask myself constantly, what matters in life, and hope to honour that. Love, family, showing care, patience and persistence. And humour, laughter, remembering to take joy in every moment.
Faced with pain and family loss I ask, Does it matter if I work? Would it not be better to wait it out, wait for the pain to mute, so that I may hope one day to feel lighter? And then, my brother’s thoughts nudge me smilingly, urging me to write, to keep on, albeit from a different perspective and with different priorities: these days, I write to challenge myself, to listen when my characters want to be heard, and do my best to record them honestly.
It is a beautiful season, mottled with uncertainty everywhere. Hot one minute, freezing the next, filled with colour, with grey and and bright blue skies. Stillness and music. Above the rocks, there is colour in the clouds. Listen, and see rainbows everywhere in the rain.
Please share:
Elouise
August 16, 2016 @ 9:42 pm
Dear Fran,
What a long journey! Congratulations for being in this new stage of writing. I love your description of the way the work now leads you, and the way your great cloud of witnesses keeps you on task. We owe so much to so many.
Cheers! ?
Fran Macilvey
August 17, 2016 @ 9:28 am
Dear Elouise
Thanks for popping in and commenting – it’s great to see you here. We make progress in small steps, even tiny ones, until one day we can say, “I got here”. Right now, that’s enough of an achievement. You are a blessed friend to me. 😀
Diane Dickson
August 17, 2016 @ 5:01 pm
Just keep going Fran – It’s all we can do – well that and enjoy the journey of course. 🙂
Fran Macilvey
August 17, 2016 @ 6:32 pm
Yes indeed, Diane – thank you so much! I shall keep going. The whole subject of motivation is spawning what looks like more blog posts, which is an unexpected bonus. 🙂